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Dad My Hero

[Result of the Helicopter Crash]

My Dad Was Sitting inFront

[Before Crash]

My Dad was sitting infront

He was awarded "Datukship" on 12 October 2002 by Tun Datuk Seri Utama Syed Ahmad Al-Haj Bin Syed Mahmud Shahabudin the Gabenor of the state of Melacca. And My mum was awarded Pingat Pentadbiran Awam (PPK)

Having Lunch with the helicopter victims childrens(in Miri)My Extanded Family

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12.10.06 (6:47 am) [edit]

Why is it so hard to live when you have everything you ever want? i think...well is it that we have what we want and there's no aim in life? Why idle kept ringing through my minds! why? aiks begin with the WHY!? sigh~ well dad, i have been enjoying life lately...i guess i am... i just completed my Matriculation and gotten out of suicidal attempts...ALOT of time! i thank alot of people and also especially God! well i love the people around me...but i dont know wheter i am doing right or wrong? i am so selfish at most point... thinking of myself... i guess i can only say that i am only Human...well its a great year this year knowing alot of new friends... they are so caring fun and most important of all supportive... We are like a Family! well thats my point of view, but others i dont know... So i did enjoy life this year... at least much more than the past years.. still i think friends are the beauty in life... when you mix with the correct group am sure you will never regret Living! (talking to myself again)* Mum, i know your happy for her... cause i am too! we all are! we really love you and her! and i am sure we all love to see each other happy! and i am sure she is happy!! as for me? well i am normal! still the same old same old... just that at times feel bored in life... have no idea why but its really the devils workshop in my mind! sigh~ anywho, i guess thats all! Love you.. (http://davinmarcusraja.blogsp...)+days events

posted by: mimi (reply)
post date: 12.10.06 (7:24 am)

sweetheart, you are being required to grow up fast after something like this. please just be kind to yourself and allow your heart to heal. it takes time, but your dad will be waiting patiently for you. he is in no hurry for you to join him. now is not the time and i believe that if we intentionally die that we are not guaranteed to be with the ones we love...we would have to work toward that and so, what would be the point. may as well stay here and help your mom and love her...she would just be devestated to lose both of her men...so, allow yourself the RIGHT to your life...i know it's hard...don't feel guilty for living and loving and laughing..believe me, your dad wants that for you.
with love,
mimi

posted by: davinmarcusraja (reply)
post date: 12.12.06 (9:53 pm)

Thanks for your words... well i guess the reason i am still breathing is because of friends and words of comfort i get almost everytime...is this self Pity? sigh~ well i never regret bloggin this way i could express...really thanks... but i sort of get out of control at times...

Datuk Dr. Marcus Raja

Died on:12 July 2004
On his pursue of WORK on the Foot of Mount Murut Helicopter bell Ranger 206 crash with 6 others
(deceased)
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