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[Result of the Helicopter Crash]




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He was awarded "Datukship" on 12 October 2002 by Tun Datuk Seri Utama Syed Ahmad Al-Haj Bin Syed Mahmud Shahabudin the Gabenor of the state of Melacca. And My mum was awarded Pingat Pentadbiran Awam (PPK)

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Having Lunch with the helicopter victims childrens(in Miri)My Extanded Family

Exam!!
09.29.04 (5:05 am)   [edit]
This week is exam week for me but i cant seem to study.....
No one to scold me and ask me to study my mum is always working working working.....
well me sleep sleep sleep....well My dad would scold me now and ask me to Study instead of playing this computer(tbloging) well i guess this is the best way for me now to express how i feel well i cant say it out right so i just write :'(
Thanks Dariana for your sympathy :)
 
My Life dad less
09.20.04 (10:00 pm)   [edit]
My Life has been alot diffrent without my dad around, to tell me what to do and advise me on what i should not do, my life is so dull and unhappy i dun noe how to express it, Its like a sharp stick stuck in my heart and can never be remove his image will always be in my heart and everything we use to do together make me angry or even sad i dunno how to say it but its really hard to say or express....its hard always knowing that we can never do it together again.....
 
Mum Left For India
09.19.04 (11:17 pm)   [edit]

My mum went to india today. She left for Kuala Lumpur at 3.30pm and leaving to India after that.. Well she is going there for 6 days she's coming back home on Saturday so my grandmother is gonna come over and look after us for this 6 few days. So i feel kind of lonely cause my mums away and all wish her a safe trip. We all have to go on with life and my mum gonna be at work. She has started work....Well Just hugged her goodbye 2 hours ago and i am already MISSING her .....
 
Begining to notice the emptyness
09.18.04 (10:35 pm)   [edit]
It has been 2 months and 6 days he was gone and i am begining to notice him missing beacuse for the pass few weeks i felt as if he was travelling to somewhere and will come back in a months time. But the days pass i begining to miss his pressence.His Smile his laugh his sarcastic jokes and all about him i wish he would be around to scold me for spending all my time on the computer to write on this tblog. I wish to ask him and tell him all about my school, I always tell him what happen at school almost every day and he would listen and joke with me.He would also tell me his day and i would ask him alot about business and politic issues. We would clean the pond together, i wish i could once more wash the car with him but all this wishes just wont come true.... now i could only wish to meet him in heaven one day....i wish so much about the things i didnt bother to do with him last time before he was gone as my mum always told us all always to Apprieciate what you have... Now i know the meaning to that phrase...

Hope You All Learn This Painfull Moral

 
Sad sad day
09.18.04 (5:52 am)   [edit]
Today is my cousins wedding in South Carolina....Diane and Charles...Diane and Charles congratulation wish i was there..
Anyway Charles and Diane visited us during the Gawai(1 June ) they also invited us my family to go to they wedding. My mum has work so she had to go to Cuba and my brother is having an exam that time 2 of my sister have school. Only left me and my dad. My dad ask me to book a flight to South Carolina so i did. So today is a sad sad day because me and my dad was surpose to be in South Carolina now enjoying my cousin wedding. Me and my dad was so excited to go we even plan to bring some bario rice over so that they could try them but what can we do its just Gods will.... i dunno last night i had a weird dream that a person looks exactly the same as my dad coming to my house. I was so happy i ran to him and Hug him and cried before i could ask him when is he going back to where ever he came from my mum told me that he is just someone who looks like my dad soon after that i woke up... i dont feel comfortable and my body was aching everywhere... well its a weird weird dream..and sad sad day...
 
My Last Family Potriat
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31/December/2000


 
Family!
09.17.04 (2:43 am)   [edit]
F A M I L Y


I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.


He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."


We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.



But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.


Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.


When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.


He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.



While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,


"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,

but the family you love, you seem to abuse.


Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.



Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.


He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."


By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.


I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.



"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.


I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."


I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."

He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.

I love you anyway."



I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."


FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company

that we are working for could easily replace us in

a matter of days.

But the family we left behind will feel the loss

for the rest of their lives.



And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,

an unwise investment indeed,

don't you think?

So what is behind the story?


Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU


 
Who is It To BLAME~??
09.16.04 (3:42 am)   [edit]
Hornbill skyways? or The unpredictable weather in Bario? I'll write all about the erors of the Company and the deadly weather
 
My Dads Eulogy
09.13.04 (9:58 pm)   [edit]



EULOGY FOR
DATUK MARCUS RAJA

Datuk Marcus is an uncle but most of all a friend. Uncle Marcus and I belong to the generation of Kelabit children who were raised by the first generation Kelabit Christians, our parents.

Protected, sheltered by the rugged and indomitable Tamabu range, our animistic and illiterate forefathers lived in a world of their own, a world that Tom Harrison, called `A World Within’. Neither the wilderness nor the darkness of these ancient jungles deterred the missionaries who heard the clarion call of God to trudge the ridges of these terrains, to navigate tortuous rivers in order to bring the Good News of salvation through Jesus to our parents. And so the Light came to the highlands and Hope propelled our parents to inspire us to go to school to learn to read and write – as if they knew that it is knowing the Word that we will know The Word, as John the disciple of Jesus said “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God.”

And so as young as seven years old our parents packed our bags and told us to go to school – at first to Pa’Main and later to Bario. From Long Peluan, Long Banga, Long Seridan, Batu Patong, Pa Dalih, Pa Mada, Pa Lungan and Long Lellang children walked miles and miles through the jungles carrying our bags and rice on our backs so that we learn to read and write. One of these children was my uncle Marcus who came with his brother Christopher Padan Raja, sister Sandra Raja, cousins and relatives from Lellang to Bario Primary Schools.

To my uncle Marcus embodies the values that our parents taught us in those early days. As children in the boarding school we learned to look after each other to share our food with each others, to help those who are weaker, and that if you are stronger and faster when you walked in the jungle you ought to slow down your pace so that the slower and the weaker one can keep up with you. We were taught to keep the morning watch prayer without fail, getting up at 5.30 before dawn was the practice. These are the intrinsic values that continued to inspire and motivate uncle Marcus for as long as I can remember him.

He wasn’t the genius in class but he knew that if he persisted and worked at the pace that he could manage he would reach his destiny. Uncle Marcus was one of those worked and studied on his owned, not intimidated by the obstacles before him nor the weakness within himself. He started working with SESCO as technical assistant where he worked with Lawrence Th’ng, while they bicycled from Siol Kandis to Batu Lintang to attend night school. He sought continuously to improve himself, his skills and knowledge and his relationship with people. Uncle Marcus was an unassuming, soft spoken Kelabit gentleman who could relate and feel comfortable with the highest and most powerful people in the land and yet be completely at home with the unnoticed folks in the longhouses – where his roots are. He did not wear his religion on his sleeve but I know his heart was guided by values that his Saviour taught him. He is passionate about helping our people the best way he knows how which is why for example he offered to lead Rurum Kelabit Sarawak as the new president just one and half months ago. He knows, as the rest of us all know, how difficult life is for those living in Bario. Because he is passionate in wanting to contribute to the good of the people he loved so dearly, Uncle Marcus came to Bario with his good friends YB Dr. Judson Sakai Tagal who himself shared the same passion and vision and helping the burden of living in this far-flung “World Within”. Along with them came dedicated and selfless government professionals, Ir. Lawrence Th’ng, Ir. Roger Wong, Ir. Jason Ng, Ir. Ling Kian Ho and piloted by Captain Samsudin Hashim who could help them translate their vision of bringing light to their kampungs. We’ve lost Uncle Marcus in his pursuit to be a help BUT I am comforted in the knowledge that the vision that his and his friends came to bring will never die. Abraham never lived to see the nations that he fathered but today we all stand before God Almighty and thank Him for Abraham’s faith that never wavered in the face of the impossible. Never have I desired it more then now that the words that Jesus said to His disciples before He died be fulfilled one day because of the pain sorrow and the unspeakable grief that we feel at the lost of our loved ones; “Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone: but if it dies, it produces much grain”. John 12.24. Let us cling to the Hope that our loss is not in vain because we know that something good will come out of it.

For Uncle Marcus and all who were with him I’d like to offer the well-known words of Henry Scot Holland:

Death is nothing at all..
I have only slipped away into the next room…
I am I and you are you…
Whatever we were to each other, that are still..
Call me by my old familiar name…
Speak of me in the easy way you always used…
Put no difference into your tone…
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow…
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together…
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect, without the race of shadow on it
Life means all that it ever meant:
It is the same as it ever was: there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval, somewhere very near – just around the corner…
All is well.
Adios, Uncle Marcus, my precious friend. Till we meet again in the Land that is brighter than day and sing glory to the Lamb.

Prepared by Ganette Jalla Ridu, Robert Lian @ Robert Saging Balangalibun. (July 31. 04)


 
13/July/2004 Still Waiting
09.12.04 (10:07 pm)   [edit]
We were still waiting for good news. But it never seem to be ever coming. We waited and waited. The rescue team was still searching n the jungle.
12.00pm there was news that they had found the helicopter already in the jungle. It wa also broadcasted in the news that they were already found. It was rumours that sayed they were probably walking to a near by village in the jungle. Soon later the news on Tv said that they were alive and they were in a near by village. I was so happy that i cried with joy and shouted in my heart Hallelujah! but later that day my uncle told us the whole truth that all the broadcasting was just rumours. They were actually not found yet. We than started to disbelieve in the media. At that moment we all just act like Blurr cause we did not know what is true and not....FALSE HOPE(I)
 
The Same night
09.12.04 (1:25 am)   [edit]
July 12,2004. Soon after the news I called my grandmother to come. At about 10.00pm a lot of relatives came over and pray. The first who came was my grandmother and my uncle’s. Soon after they arrive I burst into tears after looking at them and remembering the happy times I had with my dad.After a few minutes Aunty Mary, uncle Isaac, Aunty Nikki, Datuk Seri Balang Seling,Datin Seri Mariam and their children came as well as Dato’Jacob Ridu and Datin Garnett. A few uncle and aunties soon show up to pray and comfort us. I prayed hard and felt hurt. I couldn’t eat thinking that my dad was stranded some where without food supply.
03.00am people left our house except my aunt and uncle and a couple of cousins. Whom are here staying with us over night. The search and rescue team can only work in the morning at about 7.00am cause it was to dark and it was also raining. There was also villagers going in to the jungle to look for them.

 
The Time i Found Out that My Daddy was Missing!!
09.12.04 (12:00 am)   [edit]
Firstly today is 12/September/2004 means that it has already been exactly 2 months he was missing.

Anyway it happenned on 12/July/2004, I was watching a comedy series that i always watch every 7.00pm till 8.00pm called Holland V(Singaporean movie) with my sister. After watching the show. I continued on watching fear factor with my sister. My other sister went to fetch my brother from tuition. The movie ended at 9.00pm and i went to the toilet. I heard a car noise outside my house form the toilet so i went out to see who was it, because it was late so it was unusual. I than opened the gate.
There stood a husband and wife, it turns out to be it was the Hornbill skyways Chaiman(Yb Aiden Wing) and his wife. He than asked where was my mum? My mum at that time was at The Mulu National Park (in Miri)working and there's no line to contact her.
The two couple than walked in to our house and sit down without us asking. The Chairman did not know how to explain to us two who was at home alone. He walked up and down our house and talking on the phone like every 5 minutes. He than ask us two to sit down. Me and my sister was shocked as it was our house and he asked us to sit. So we followed his instructions and sit. He than says:

YB Aiden Wing:You two sit down
Me and my sis:(Blur/shocked)so we sit
YB Aiden Wing:Well actually i come just to tell u that ur father...(his phone rang)
(talked on the phone for 5 minutes)
Me and my sis:(Worried and scared)
YB Aiden Wing: So Sorry, Actually your fathers helicopter did not arrive at Ba ke'lalan at
12.45pm as planned.
Me and my sis:What do you mean?
YB Aiden Wing:Dont worry i am sure they are fine, we just have to pray.
Me and my sis: (tears started flowing)

YB Aiden's Wife tried to comfort us. So we were like so scared and no one was at home with us we were all alone at home my mum was traveling. The two couple left and we started calling everyone and relative's. I called my maternal grandmother and told her. I cant stop crying than and started to remember the last time i saw him. But we still had high hopes that he was still alive. because my dad lived in the jungle before and they were 7 off them in the helicopter.
Soon alot of relatives rang our house and asked whether it was true. The news headline the next day was "7 Missing in Ba ke'lalan." The headline lasted for 3 days and when the 3rd day the headline was "The Fate of 7 still Unknown"
..... the search lasted for 17 days and no news....

continue..
 
The Day There were Missing.(Their last meal)
09.09.04 (8:58 pm)   [edit]
They were so happy to go on the trip to Bario and off to ba ke'lalan by Helicopter called a Bell Ranger 206 which can carry 7 passengers including the pilot. The Pilot name is Captain Samsuddin.
They took the bell ranger 206 to Bario. In Bario they had their last breakfast, which they ate in the Bario airport. They went to Bario for a little while to chat with the Villagers of Bario which are mostly Kelabits. My dad was so happy to meet alot of the villlagers as he was also among one of them last time before he left to study in the city. At about 12.15pm they took off to Ba Ke'lalan. They were give some Bario rice to bring back with them. My dads helicopter flu first than followed by another helicopter 15minutes later.
I was at school at that time. I knew that he was suppose to come home that evening so i tidy up the house a little bit.

His last Meal
 
The Day he left to Bario
09.09.04 (3:31 am)   [edit]
He was staying at a hotel in Miri called the Mega Hotel. He stayed there for a night. than the next day he went to another hotel to meet up with his friends. He meet up with 5 of his friends, Roger Wong who was the Sesco(electric supply company to Sarawak) CEO, Lawrence T'hing who is his good friend and also a Chairman for the Padawan Council, YB Dr Judson Sakai Tagal whom also is his good friend and the person in charge of the area.The other 2 was engineers for SESCO.
Together they went on a mission to provide electricity to the people whom are still living in the jungle called Bario.My dad was also the Presiden of the Rurum kelabit sarawak( Presiden of his comunity). His comunity is called KELABITS that makes me a Kelabit. Well they went to Bario on a Helicopter. The Helicopter company is called Hornbill Skyways.
 
The last time I spoke to my dad.
09.09.04 (3:13 am)   [edit]
I spoke to my dad on the phone on Sunday(11/9/2004) morning before he left for Miri than to Bario. He went to Miri bringing his Golf set and a couple of shirts. I did not get to see him because he was to excited to go to Bario and he left for the Kuching International Airport early in the Morning , well i was still sleeping then cause it was about 5.30am he woke up and rush to the airport. His flight was delayed to 8.00am but he still wanted to wait in the airport. He was to excited to go. The last phone call i got from him was that he asked me about the camera. Well we did not talk much on the phone because as i thought he would come back in two days. After that conversation i pass the phone to my mum.
That was the LAST time i spoke to him.
 
My Last Day with Daddy
09.09.04 (2:43 am)   [edit]
Well my it was on Saturday(10/7/2004). Me, my mum, my brother and my dad planned to go to a University Convention held by New Zealand. The Convention took place at the Riverside Hotel. My mum went to the K and K diomand shop because my mum wanted to send her ear rings for waxing. We went to the Convention late. Me and my dad went into the building first because he cant wait that long. So we waited in the building. We went up to discovered that the convention has just ended. Later we went home to eat some home cooked food because he likes to eat home cooked food. We did not talk much that day but he just asked me to check the Digital camera which he was so eager to take pictures in Bario with, while he was with my mum lounging on the couch/sofa reading the newspaper. And after that we went to bed, and that was the

LAST time i saw him.

 
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Datuk Dr. Marcus Raja

Died on:12 July 2004
On his pursue of WORK on the Foot of Mount Murut Helicopter bell Ranger 206 crash with 6 others
(deceased)
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Dads Coffin

[ Daddy,Me and Mummy ]

Our First Family Potrait


Second Family Porait


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Last Family Potrait


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Anoucing they had found 5 bodies


Image Hosted by ImageShack.us7 Bodies was found there was no survivors


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The Chief Minister Pay Condolence to the family


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Prime Minister of Malaysia Datuk Seri Abdullah Badawi Pay Condolence